momm, please :'(

8:37:00 pm Siti Mariam 0 Comments

#assalamualaikum .
i'm really out of my mood, so i'm gonna make it shorter .

just now, mak aku suruh amek lesen kereta . okay, fine . i really want to, but not now :(
bulan neh gaji aku memang aku dah plan nak bayar something, tp aku ta buley bgtau . . erghh, what a pain -,-'
aku dah kata, mmg aku nak amek but later laa . bukan nya aku ta na amek langsung, please laa faham :( how am i goin' to explain to her ? X'C
i really need this money T~T
hell, mmg banyak pengorbanan yg aku kena buat :(
tulis panjang-2 pun ta guna . bye .

#and of course, korang pun ta paham . kann ?


cerita budak hingusan - part I

5:53:00 pm Siti Mariam 0 Comments

*woot woot :)
since aku dah habes sch neh, TER-rindu zaman kecik aku . well, banyak laa dugaan yang aku hadapi untuk mengUP-grade ke alam sekolah rendah . hehe . okeh, start dari aku tadika (if aku ingat lagi laa) xD

aku ingat lagi, first time aku masuk tadika . masa tu umur 5tahun . oleh sebab aku suka tunjuk rajin depan cikgu, cikgu pun sayangg aku lebih *kaki bodek jugak aku neh* -,-
then, aku jd pembuli . pendengki pun aku rasa macam ye . huu ~ every single thing of other kids do, if they blow up my anger then i just gonna tell the teacher so that they'll be punished . ehee . *jahat betul -,-*
tp tu semua ta lama . lama-2 aku fikir, if aku langsi dgn orang nanti orang langsi dgn aku balik . so, aku pilih untuk 'putihkan' hati aku neh . haha ~ perangai aku yang suka menjahanam kan orang ta dpt bertahan bila aku melangkah ke kelas darjah 1 .
haah, time neh bertemu buku dgn ruas . aku jumpa lawan aku . bukan laa seorang yang berbadan sasa or terer gaduh . *budak toh kecik pendek jea* . cikgu sayangg dye laaaagiii lebih sebab dye budak paling pandai dlm kelas .
then, mungkin hukum karma bg aku . what goes around comes around laa kan .
aku dibuli . *uhh, bukan secara fizikal yaa . tp mental* . hampir gila jugak laa .
paling aku ta boleh lupa, ada sorang geng dye ludah atas meja aku then kata "wehh, aku nak kao lap guna tangan kao'' . amboii ~ saat toh mang ta terasa ada kesabaran dah . aku ta sedar, lima jari aku neh dah hinggap kat pipi budak toh . huahaahaa ~ *kes neh berlaku masa aku drjah 2*

ahaa ~ well, there's a lesson i've learned :- buat baik berpada pada . kalau baik sangat nanti kena pijak kepala :)

*to be continued*

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you :)

3:08:00 am Siti Mariam 0 Comments


everybody starts their moving, with their own ways to go
while you were still standing; confusing stuck in crowd
nobody seems to cares, none of them noticed you
they were looking at you like the fading ashes
-invisible
you deeply sigh as the world seem to blur your view
you lost and insecure, alone in the path
tears flow then your heart is scratched inside
-hurtful pains
the lip curved a smile but the truth; it was bleeding
it hurts but you keep saying ‘it’s okay’
because of the blame that goes around you
people turn their visions to blind yet the nonsense seen
the truth has been no matter once you are nothing
you may cry;
as the sky is about to fall since the cloud turned grey
or as the ground you stand on is going to collapse
but the only path you take is move on
act like you were happy before and after
-it’s all lie
when it needs you to face the world alone
instead of running, you make your steps ahead
you showed ‘the world without trust’ is better
but in deep, you wished for someone like no others
you tired with all the wrong doings in your life
the parts where you hate it so much you cut it off
there was nothing left in your memories
-it’s gone
yesterday, you were hurt
now, you are crying
and then, you laugh and smile to get your world better
-fixed heart

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i do remember :)

1:49:00 am Siti Mariam 0 Comments


izzatul hidayah ahmad, tu laa nama penuh kao .
selama aku kawan dgn kao, aku tahu kao banyak pendam . segala rasa sakit, pedih, kao cuma pendam jea . benda yg aku ta puas hati, kao suka senyum depan aku bila kao ada masalah . mcm laa aku neh buta, ape laa -,-
masa sekolah menengah, aku dgn kao dah mcm belangkas . time silat pun berkepit dua orang jea . sampai cikgu wan pun cakap aku dgn kao ta boleh na dipisahkan . haha ~
tp, tatao laa . setiap kesabaran ada batas . manusia pun ada had jugak . satu hari tu, tiba-2 kao ta layan aku mcm biasa . aku ingat kao bad mood, aku pun biar jea . but then, makin lama aku biarkan makin lama kao ignore aku . aku tegur, kao buad dek . aku panggil, kao ta toleh . aku lalu, lagi laa kao ta pandang . pelik =,= aku ada buad salah kea ?
lama-2, aku menyampah bila kao buad aku mcm tu . tambah pulak, najwa dah tolong nak baik kan aku dgn kao . tp kao ada alasan kao sendiri, alasan yg mampu buad aku buang kao jauh dari hidup aku . since then, kao dgn aku ta mcm dulu . bila selisih, ta pandang muka . senang kata, memang kita ta pernah kenal laa ibarat nye . dasat -,-

tapi aku tau . apa yg kao buad, ada sebab sendiri . mungkin kao rasa aku ta paham situasi yg kao alami sampai kao terpaksa buad aku benci kao . atau mungkin jugak aku ta paham knp kao nak aku benci kao . . *err, merepek apa aku nehh =,=''
aku tatao laa, kadang-2 aku na tegur kao . aku selalu nampak kao post status . rasa nak like, tp . haha, ta pe laa . mungkin lebih baik, aku dgn kao kekal mcm neh :)

yang penting, aku tetap anggap kao sebagai kawan baik aku . tak pernah berubah pun, sama ada kao masih ignore aku ataupun tidak . dan aku tetap akan ingat, kao antara memori terindah yang aku ada :)

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